Oh. My. Lost.

That was so gut-wrenching. I hate caring so much about characters on a show like "Lost" where no one is safe, because stuff like last night happens, where my favorite character dies, and it's heartbreaking. I cried, like to the point where Marc got me kleenex, when Juliet fell down that hole. I get teary-eyed all the time for stuff, but I was way beyond that this time.

And then somehow she survived that huge fall and set off that damn bomb, and boom, "LOST" title screen as it faded to white. I hate, hate that she died, if that's truly what happened, but at least she went out a kick-ass heroine. But dammit, if anyone deserved a happy ending, it was her, and I'll be mad if they killed her.

I have no idea if she's going to be dead or alive next season. It would be shocking to me if what happened actually managed to change the past and we "reboot" next season, but I'd love for it to be true because it would mean she'd still be alive. More likely, I'm guessing what happened, happened, and the nuke somehow always went off and it was always part of the Incident. The question is, did it kill everyone else? It can't have, or else there'd be no more show (right?). But I'd think if you set off a thermonuclear device, that's gotta cause massive destruction. The other possibility is that they got flashed through time to 2007 - which wouldn't be good for Jules either, because she looked about two seconds from death, and she'd just end up dying in 2007.

Whatever the case, I thought Elizabeth Mitchell did an amazing job, as did Josh Holloway (Emmy nominations please!). I'm glad they gave her some really meaty stuff to work with, considering she never had a centric ep. The scenes between them totally broke my heart. I loved the looks between them as Jack was getting ready to throw the bomb down the hole - the smile she gave him was just perfect - a mixture of love, regret, happiness and sadness all at once, maybe? I don't know what exactly, but it was perfect. And he gave her a nickname! The one person he never gave one to, he finally did.

And of course, the "death" scene - I think it's clear that James really did truly love her, in a way I'm not sure he even felt about Kate. His anguish when she let go said it all.

Guh, I could just go on and on.

Oh man, so much other stuff too - is the Locke we knew dead and gone? Forever replaced by this not!Locke? And what about Sayid? Is he going to die? His gut shot didn't look so promising. And why did Jacob have to touch everyone he visited?

There's so much else, but my brain is just fried right now. Maybe I'll be more coherent tomorrow.