Just got my beta (blood test) #2 results for today, and my HCG level is 15, so this officially isn't going to be a viable pregnancy. My doctor wants me to stop my medications and go back Thursday for another blood test just to make sure my HCG levels go down to 0. If they don't (and with my luck they won't), it's possible I have an ectopic pregnancy.
Today's news wasn't a huge surprise to me - I took a home pregnancy test after I got the call Thursday and then took another one on Friday, and the line was even fainter on Friday. I was hoping that my level today would be 0, if it was going to be bad news, just to have it over with, but of course nothing goes simply. On the bright side, on the scale of terrible things I've had to go through, a chemical pregnancy isn't even close to the high end. I'm just grateful it'll be an early miscarriage and not a later one.
In the meantime, I'd love to just crawl into a hole and make the rest of the world go away. Because my bitterness right now? It's nuclear.
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