October 2010 Archives

After the bad news from this afternoon, I basically spent the rest of the day alternately crying and sleeping. Not healthy, I know. I guess the one liberating thing about the news is that I'm not obsessing over every symptom as much. I've had enough to "feel" pregnant (to the point where both this time and last time I was able to tell that my tests were going to be positive), and my symptoms have been coming and going, which has been freaking me out. Today happens to be one of those days where I haven't had much in the way of symptoms, and I don't know if they'll come back or if this is the beginning of the end.

I got my results from my third blood test from this morning, and it's not good news. My HCG levels only went up to 126, which is still too slow a rise (it's even a bit slower than it was last week). My doctor says at this point the chances of the pregnancy making it are slim. She gave me the option of continuing my shots for another three days, which I'm going to do, and get re-tested on Thursday.

Got my blood work (beta) results from this morning - my HCG level went up to 67.9. A nice doubling from 43 would have been preferred, but doubling times can average 48-72 hours, and this increase corresponds to about a 73 hour doubling time, so it's right on the cusp of the higher end. So my doctor is still pretty guarded, but it's at least going up. She says the odds are about 50%, maybe a little better, but there's really no way of knowing. My next blood test is Monday.