Chaotic Zoo Blog

It's Been a Long Day

Mon, 04 Oct 2010 21:14:56 -0800

After the bad news from this afternoon, I basically spent the rest of the day alternately crying and sleeping. Not healthy, I know. I guess the one liberating thing about the news is that I'm not obsessing over every symptom as much. I've had enough to "feel" pregnant (to the point where both this time and last time I was able to tell that my tests were going to be positive), and my symptoms have been coming and going, which has been freaking me out. Today happens to be one of those days where I haven't had much in the way of symptoms, and I don't know if they'll come back or if this is the beginning of the end.

Beta #3 - Not Good News

Mon, 04 Oct 2010 14:44:30 -0800

I got my results from my third blood test from this morning, and it's not good news. My HCG levels only went up to 126, which is still too slow a rise (it's even a bit slower than it was last week). My doctor says at this point the chances of the pregnancy making it are slim. She gave me the option of continuing my shots for another three days, which I'm going to do, and get re-tested on Thursday.

Beta #2

Fri, 01 Oct 2010 16:12:17 -0800

Got my blood work (beta) results from this morning - my HCG level went up to 67.9. A nice doubling from 43 would have been preferred, but doubling times can average 48-72 hours, and this increase corresponds to about a 73 hour doubling time, so it's right on the cusp of the higher end. So my doctor is still pretty guarded, but it's at least going up. She says the odds are about 50%, maybe a little better, but there's really no way of knowing. My next blood test is Monday.

Absent Blogger

Thu, 30 Sep 2010 10:57:49 -0800

Well, I keep meaning to update this time, but I've just been so mentally preoccupied lately. I never even got a chance to write about Maui, which I'll try to do later. But IVF has taken up my time mentally and physically since we've gotten back, as we had our frozen cycle. We transferred three embryos, and I had my blood test yesterday. The result? I'm pregnant, but my HCG number is a little on the low side - 43. Significantly better than the 13 I got last time, and the doctor that called even congratulated me, but my second blood test tomorrow will be key. If it's good, I'll let myself get a little excited about it. Right now I'm just trying not to stress and obsess about it. In the meantime, I'm keeping my fingers crossed! Any vibes, good thoughts, prayers, etc you can send our way is appreciated. We need it!

Blah

Sun, 22 Aug 2010 17:51:46 -0800

So I haven't updated this blog in weeks - part of the reason is because I was sick for almost two weeks, and the other part, to be honest, is because I just don't have a ton of positive things to say these days. For the last few months I feel like I keep getting kicked in the gut, and I'm just way emotionally fatigued these days. Yesterday was no exception.

Tardy on the Update

Fri, 06 Aug 2010 09:32:41 -0800

I had promised to have the recap of Day 2 of Comic Con up on Tuesday, but that obviously didn't happen. I had my retrieval Tuesday morning and was planning on blogging from bed, but I've been feeling like hell since, and not really up to pulling out the laptop.

Comic Con Day 1

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:13:05 -0800

So, I started typing this up last week, and just never got around to finishing it. So my Comic Con wrap-up here is super late. Anyways, I had an awesome time at Comic Con! I don't know that I can say the same for Marc, but he was a really good sport and kept me company for the two days we were there. It was insanely crowded there (I think 120,000 people in attendance), so walking the exhibit floor wasn't the most fun experience. I did, however, get to cross a couple things off my bucket list, so I was happy!

Comic Con Week!

Tue, 20 Jul 2010 18:18:48 -0800

This Friday we leave for San Diego and Comic Con! We'll be there for two days, flying back late Saturday night. I don't know yet exactly what we're going to see, since a lot of it's going to depend on the lines to get into the panels and autograph sessions.

Catching Up

Mon, 12 Jul 2010 12:43:20 -0800

Wow, lots to catch up on. Will try to be succinct so that this doesn't end up being a 20-page essay!

Cake, Cupcakes and Comic Con

Wed, 30 Jun 2010 16:57:08 -0800

Things have been pretty crazy busy lately. Marc's been busy at work, and I've been pretty busy, well, not at work. Today was the first day that I've pretty much done nothing because I was stuck at home waiting for my medication delivery, which I had to sign for. So I spent my morning at the computer, refreshing the Comic Con website incessantly to try to buy some tickets for the con. I managed to get Friday and Saturday passes for both Marc and I, booked airfare (which only cost $25 thanks to a voucher I had from a previous cancelled trip), and booked a hotel. So I guess I actually was somewhat productive.

Piping Petunias

Wed, 23 Jun 2010 15:47:03 -0800

I stayed up until 2 am last night piping about 30 petunias. This new batch was a lot better than the batch I did earlier - I switched to a bigger tip than the one Wilton recommended, and I think it worked better for me. My hand was super tired by the time I was done.

Oh, Hey

Wed, 23 Jun 2010 01:18:08 -0800

So I've been reminded a couple times now that I have this blog that I never update these days. Sorry. I wasn't in much of a mood to write for a while, and not working makes my blogging even more irregular than it was before, ironically enough. But I'll try to make a better effort to update this on closer to a daily basis rather than a weekly one.

It's Over...Almost

Sat, 12 Jun 2010 14:21:38 -0800

Just got my beta (blood test) #2 results for today, and my HCG level is 15, so this officially isn't going to be a viable pregnancy. My doctor wants me to stop my medications and go back Thursday for another blood test just to make sure my HCG levels go down to 0. If they don't (and with my luck they won't), it's possible I have an ectopic pregnancy.

So, More Waiting

Thu, 10 Jun 2010 12:29:53 -0800

Well, I didn't get raging good news this morning from my blood test results. My HCG levels from today weren't 0, but they were only 13, which is very low (my doctor likes to see it between 30 and 90). Which means that something implanted, but the chances of this turning into a viable pregnancy are pretty low. So I have to go back in on Saturday for a follow-up blood test to see if the number doubles or drops. I'm trying to hold onto some sliver of hope, but this is definitely not the news I was hoping for. But, fingers still crossed until we know for sure.

Updates

Thu, 03 Jun 2010 21:43:59 -0800

I'm terrible at keeping things updated, I know. I spent the last two days pretty much lounging around in bed, you would think I would've found some time to blog.